I make it to work within the hour and begin preparing press releases for the day (from those generated during the wee hours). To my surprise, there were none to generate.
I then focus on the big day ahead me. I'm giving a plan of action briefing to my supervisor. All is ready to go by 8:45 a.m., or so I thought. Oh my gosh, he went off as soon as I told him the equipment couldn't move. I was "falling on my sword" left and right. I'm thinking to myself, "what in the world is going on?" I tell you what was going on, I was the messenger of bad news. After he blasted me for 30 minutes, I felt like an idiot, and was completely kicked back by his attitude of not having it his way. Yes, he shot the messenger! I know we have all been victim to that situation, and it doesn't feel good.
Needless to say, the rest of my day was not going so well either, but I tried to stay focused and positive. After 12 hours had passed, I let it fester until I blew up in tears in the bathroom (latrine). Why was I carrying anger, and he was going on about his day? Why was I crying? And for some of you guys out there, it wasn't because I am a female and all emotional. No, no, no! It was because I put my supervisor on a pedestal. Clearly a place he should not have been on.
I finally realized, he had the problem. I truly had to let it go and count it all joy. Isn't that the Godly thing to do, count it all joy? When I did that, reality hit me. The only person I need to place on a pedestal is Christ. All others are like chasing the wind. So, instead of going around in circles and getting all upset about it, I stopped thinking of my supervisor as some great person. He's human and has flaws. I'm human and have flaws too. As Stedman Graham said, "People who let events and circumstances dictate their lives are living reactively. That means that they don't act on life, they only react to it."
In essence, if I truly place God first and look up to Him, everything else is just chasing the wind. And I don't have time for chasing the wind in Afghanistan. I only have time for Jesus.
Very insightful and didactic. You were clearly very angry and you handled it with dignity and decorum. Only a person of deep inner strength can see thru this type of issue and implement a solution. Thanks for the insppiration...! MPRI
ReplyDeleteYour are welcome. It takes a person firm in God's foundation to speak with wisdom. And even a person with little faith can move mountains in God's name. As people, we should try to see things in a different perspective, perhaps even their perspective. The key is not to lose sight of who we are, and that is a child of God. We are to speak gently to others, and be at peace with one another. I admit it doesn't always work, but we have to try to see them as God does. We do our best by being obedient to God and His will. Once we do those two things, we are equipped with the power He has given us to overcome evil. Not everything is evil, but the devil has come to seek, kill and destroy. So as the song says, "I Am Standing On The Promises of God" we too must stand in faith in God no matter what comes our way.
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