Who Is It You Are Looking For?

Last week, I was doing some soul searching.  I didn't search high or low, fast or slow, but it was a continuous search.  You know the kind where you have an idea of where the answer lies or what the answers are, yet you try to make more sense of it than needs to be?  I was at that place today.  

A few nights ago, some co-workers put cubicles together to provide a better working environment.  They put all the computers, chairs, copying machines, phones and etc back too.  So, when we all went to work that following morning, the office looked new, bigger, and organized.  Truthfully, it was the same small office area as before.  Then the problems arose.  People were angry that their computers (which no one had assigned computers) were not in the same area as before.  I admit, I was trying to find the PC that had my personal folder on it, but I didn't get angry.  I just mapped my settings to each computer, and asked people to resend me files.  This one officer was so upset that he was kurt with me.  He apologized 10 minutes later and said, "they took my computer with all the slides I had been working on to present to one of the Generals.  Now, I have to go look for it, or they'll look for it later."  I looked at him and said, "You know, I have the same problem.  But, I can't do anything about it, so I asked a select few to resend me documents and emails."  He didn't like my answer, but he knew it made it sense.

What I got from that whole experience is that we already know the answer, but we don't want to say it aloud.  It kind of reminds me of Jesus in the garden before he was arrested.  Remember when Judas came up to him with the soldiers?  Jesus asked them, "Who is it you are looking for?"  They replied, "Jesus."  They knew it was him surely because of Judas, but still they asked.  They went seeking the one person who can provide them salvation, yet they were seeking for the wrong reason.  Some of us seek God for the wrong reasons, but yet claim him in our hearts.  There are some who will never claim Jesus, and will seek some other god or higher being.  There are some who seek God and claim Him as King of Kings and Lord of Lords forever and ever.

I say the real answer to soul searching is finding you.  And when you find you, God is there waiting at the door.  The door you have to open seeking a God who is real, powerful, mighty, willing to love you, forgive you, and provide you with His grace and mercy.  That my friend is who you are really looking for.