Renewed Spirit Brings About Positive Change

So we do not give up. Our physical body is becoming older and weaker, but our spirit inside us is made new every day. 2 Cor. 4:16

I noticed I force myself to eat because I don't have the appetite, and I am so tired. I'm tired from work (personality wise), and tired of church folk (not practicing what they speak or preach).

You see, I needed someone to talk to but all I got i return was a cold shoulder, a laundry list of their problems, or the twisting of my words so they could preach to me. I could not take it anymore, so I decided to be by myself and rest. When I did that, it raised more questions of concern. Questions you don't want anyone to ask because you're in a combat environment. Here are a few of them: "Many people get depressed this time of year because of the season" "You haven't been yourself lately, is there something I can help you with?" "If you need me just come to me and talk." The very ones that were asking were the ones who didn't have time for me or interrupted me to tell me how I was really feeling. As time went on, I talked to each one and only one heard me. That person prayed for me and gave me encouragement. I felt better spiritually, but my body was still tired. I talked to a few co-workers about their personalities in the office overall, and another burden was lifted. Yet, I was still tired. Then it hit me. I was trying to get sick.

Ladies and gentlemen, I have come down with sinusitis, and I was fighting it drastically. But, I was not claiming a cold. By the third day, I obviously lost that battle and went to sick call to get medication. I am taking a 6 hour medication and a 12 hour medication in addition to the other 4 pills I take daily. (Malaria pill, colon health pill, birth control pill, and a pain reliever). A lot of pills huh? I guess that's what happens when you get old or older.

I was informed that the medication will either make me wired first or sleepy second. Usually, I have to eat food, take the pill immediately and then I fall asleep. Not this time, I was wide awake and fighting sleep. Sleep that I desperately needed. By the time the second hour rolled around, I was out cold. I mean 'knocked out' cold too.

When I awoke in the morning, I wasn't as tired. My taste had come back and I could begin to smell again as day two flew by. Today, is day 3 and my voice is back, my nose doesn't run anymore, and I cough less. I am not tired as much either. I'm not tired because during the time I rested, I was in my Savior's charge. He whispered words of love to me, and basically said, "You have been too busy, and you need to stop. But you didn't hear me. So, I got your attention through your voice, head, and chest. You will sit down and allow me to minister unto you." Now what can you do when the Father talks to you like that? Nothing but heed His wise teachings.

Every once in awhile we need to sit down and really listen to God. In truth, we should be listening to Him daily. However, when we do this we find ourselves renewed in His spirit. And that my brother and sister is a change for the better.

You have begun to live the new life, in which you are being made new and are becoming like the One who made you. This new life brings you the true knowledge of God. Col. 3:10